hallo.. been rather busy lately..
school has kinda started already for me.. M1, sem 3
you know, we pay much more school fees than other faculty students..
so yar.. we have more school too.. to make our money worth..
anywae, currently we're having a crash course on psycology and sociology..
its really fun and interesting.. no wonder everyone wanns to study that

anywae, the point of teachin all this is to make us a better doctor..
to teach us how to treat our patients right and stuff..
so far we have learnt bout self-awareness and communication
its only through self-awareness that we can know more bout ourselves and improve

here's some stuffs i've been thinkin bout..
we did this punnet square thingie..
the area known to both you and ure frens is called the arena..
the area known to you but not ure frens is called facade..
area known to ure frens but not to you.. is called ure blindspot..
and the area unknown to both you and ure frens is called the unknown.. like duh?
its basically an area in ure life that you shud discover..
so anywae, i did the personality/identity test..
and realised that i've a great area of arena and blindspot... and a little of both facade and unknown..
thot it was great.. coz at least i knew that i was behaving like my true self most of the time..
but after the discussion and stuffs.. i realised that it might not be a good thing after all..
i show so much of my true self.. put myself out in the open.. and i'm all vulnerable..
if i'm lucky.. i find true frens that really care.. but if not, i'll get taken advantage of..
and i realised that most of the time.. you'll kena cheated ...
like the damn woman that banged into my car.. she promised to pay the damages..
but backed out and refused everything in the end..
at least i learnt from that experience.. but does that mean that i shud be on guard on the time??
that would be so sad right?? everyone suspecting everyone else all the time..
i guess i'm a simple and too trusting person.. maybe its the environment i grew up in..
all so sheltered and stuffs.. but even this environment is changin..
pple i love and trust so much can be as vicious and evil as strangers.. its so scary..
this course kinda made me start thinkin and reflectin alot... wow!!

anywae, todae's topic was a continuation of communication..
and one of the issue we brought up was bout judgin pple.. thru their actions and stuffs
its supposed to teach us not to jump to conclusion bout pple too soon..
we did exercises on different scenarios..
mine was about a guy who comes and see you regardin a chest pain..
after examinatin him.. you realised it was merely muscle spasma..
but he refuses to believe you and insists on more checks and tests...
so.. our task was to roll the D.I.E
make a Description of wad he did.. Interpret it and Evaluate ure impression of him..
so an example of our discussion is that maybe that patient had relatives that had similar chest pain..
which the doctor shrugged off as a muscle cramp..
and daes later they die.. so that patient would naturally be insecure...
or may the patient is the sole breadwinner of his family..
so naturally he's worried for his family.. yar and lots of other reasons...

then one of my classmate asked..
so when shud be we stop rollin the D.I.E??
when shud be we stop giving reasons/excuses for people's actions..
and start judging them as who they are..
is there a limit??
here's an example.. you pick up a book that looks like shit..
you think to urself.. cannot judge a book by its cover..
and so you decide to give it a chance and read it..
after readin the first chapter.. you think its shitty..
but then again.. you think this writer might be keepin the best for last..
so you give him another chance and read the next chapter.. and the next.. and the next..
and after finishing the book.. you still think this writer sucks..
but you dun wanna be so quick to judge him..
so you give him another chance.. maybe this is not his best work..
and so you try another book of his.. and everything repeats itself..
in no time.. you finish all his books and realised that he's a truely lousy writer..
but its too late.. you've spent all ure money on his books..
and spent all your time readin his books..
so yupp... applyin it to life..
how many times shud one disappoint you before you give up on him??
does it depends on how much that person mean to you ??
then again.. wad if you dun mean as much to that person as he does to you?
den how? wad shud you do??
coz unlike the books that can all be bought and read...
your life and everything else would never have an end until you die..
so how? stay on.. let him use and hurt you before you give up?
but by den.. you'll probably be too old and tired..
or just leave before anything bad happens to you??
wad if he has changed for the better? then wouldn't you be missin out on that??
haii.. this is so cheem :(