its really funny..
blogspot wipes out every normal entry but publishes the angry comment i posted..
anywae.. i shall be nice.. and give it another chance..
hope it doesnt screw with me again.. argh..
i'm BORED lah.. stuck at home.. was supposed to catch madagascar with char..
but the plan was screwed coz of unforeseen circumstances..
shall not go into details but yar.. bad mood.. bad bad mood..
plus my sister have been playing and singing the same song over and over again..
irritating to the max man..

so anywae.. i'm finally beginnin to truly enjoy my holidaes..
the supposedly 4 months long holidaes...
but there's only like 4-5 weeks of it left.. haii..
and to shorten it further.. i've medicamp and hall stuffs to do..
argh.. doubt i'm goin to have much of ME time in this holidae.. sigh..
but i dun care.. shall go enjoy myself still..

here's wad i've been doin this holidae..
feb to mar - study for ca2
mar to apr - study for pros
apr to may - study for vivas
may to june - study for supps
and hopefully i dun have to spend anymore time studyin...
like real ah.. this is goin to be my life for the next 2 decades of my life..
so sad hor.. wad a sad life..
haii.. its actually NO LIFE lah.. :(
and this is the only break i have for the next 4 years in nus..
i guess i've to resign to being a MUGGER/NERD liao.. :(

the supps yest was HORRIBLE :(
it was much tougher than the pros..
sai-face lah.. i think i studied so much harder this time..
and yet i still find it harder?!!?
wah.. die lah die lah..
i think i shud be able to pass lah..
but get 60% and above? i'm afraid not :(
i dun wanna get retained leh!!!

heard that the dean's pist with our batch..
he said during the meet-the-dean session that we're the rudest and shittiest batch..
we even have sumone with a criminal record or sumthing..
he's also like super pist with us coz we have one of the most failures this year..
so he has up the passing grade to 60% and above..
those who dun meet the requirement.. get retained without another chance..
damn scary right?? i'm damn scared lah :(

haii... i'll just die if i get retained..
i know i prolly deserved it lah..
but i'll still go kill myself lor..
i just cannot bear to think of all the pple i'll be disappointing..
all the time and money wasted.. $17k leh..
and goin thru all those emotions...
eeekkk... scary scarey :(
haii... better pray harder not to get retained :(
see.. i'm worryin so much.. i dun even think i'll be able to enjoy my hols till results come out..

anywae.. post exam has been fun..
been catchin up on my sleep quite a bit.
and watched quite a lot of smallville on vcd..
yupp.. i like watchin shows on videos or vcd.. dun like tvs...
simply becoz tvs have adverisements..
i hate it when ure happily watchin ure show.. and at the most crucial/climatic part..
they interupt with jamie yeo dancin on a fake beach.. advertisin her new drink..
and i hate waiting for the next episode..
its like.. wait an entire week just to watch another 1hr of desperate housewives??
you wait and wait.. and suddenly you lose all interest in that show.. and there it goes...
so downloading's the wae to go..
you get to watch it as and when you wann... you get to watch over and over again..
get to rewind to parts you missed or dint catch..
and best part is.. to watch all the episodes at a stretch :)

oh yar.. while waitin for char to finish her essay and come watch smallville with me..
i was online readin blogs.. mostly malaysian's blogger..
and its totally refreshing.. i feel they're more open bout their thots and they have really good english..
read this trainee doc's blog.. she's a muslim and a les at the same time..
really interestin.. coz i alwaes thot all muslims are very staunch.. and they'll never be gay..
at least for a malaysian malay muslim right??
yar.. and read her girlfren's blog too.. really interestin..

anywae.. i used to have a thing against malaysians because of my dad..
and of course coz of the bad blood between the 2 nations..
but more of my dad.. becoz of his family.. they suck lah..
okae.. only the males in the family lah..

for starters.. they dun believe in education for the girls..
they hated my mum coz she was a uni grad.. they not only showed it.. but tried times and times to sow discord between my parents..
when they heard i was in med sch.. they rolled their eyes coz they thot my dad was wasting his money on me..
when my female cousins wanted to go overseas to further her studies.. my uncle asked her if she could repay him the money spent on her in the same number of years she left for..
but send both her bros to australia without hessitation..
when my cousin wanted to marry his girlfren of 5 years.. there were objections.. just becoz she was a uni graduate as well..
they're totally biased against us.. how hateful..
dunno wad's wrong with them..

also... they dun believe in monogamy..
they marry to have kids.. but leave their wives at home while they fool around..
my uncles have mistresses.. so does the married cousins my age..
and my poor aunts and cousins-in-law are so helpless.. they have resigned to their fates..
and they dun believe in honesty and integrity..
my dad runs a family business together with his 3 bros..
and they take turns to cheat him..
each time he finds out.. he forgives them and begs them to return the money..
but instead.. they threaten him.. threaten to disregard him as part of the family..
so shitty.. i hate them.. still got many many more horror stories lor..
haii.. now you know why i'm not close to my cousins...

k.. shall sleep now.. bye