everyone must think that i'm damn happy now,
now that the exams are finally over.
but sadly, i'm not.

as most of my good friends already know,
graham met with an accident on saturday.
we had to rush her to the emergency department.
but couldnt send her for any treatment,
because the MRI of her head alone is $800,
and even if we were able to find the cause,
we dun have enough money to send her for an operation.
haii.

poor graham is paralysed, in both her hind legs,
she's been a really strong girl.
but seeing her drag herself around the house really kills me.
and because she cant stand to pee or shit,
she'll hold it in until we come home to carry her up,
so that she'll be able to pee/shit.

yesterdae, after the paper, i came home late.
graham waited for me until she couldnt keep it in anymore,
she tried to pass motion on her own,
and ended by getting herself soiled.
you know, i felt so bloody terrible and guilty.
haii.

its really painful seeing someone you love so much,
getting hurt and struggling like that.
haii.